beauty-from-blackpool:

aboyandhischin:

"I was just worried, tired and confused. I wasn’t even mad or cross, I promise."

They sat there for the longest time, neither saying a word. Matt carded his fingertips through her brunette locks idly and just held her close. “You can tell me as much or as little as you like, although I can probably guess the major points so I won’t press you on it. Just have faith, beautiful. We’ll get through this, all of us.” By way of emphasis he placed his hand gently on her bump and smiled. “We love you.”

"I know." she said softly. She could feel her little girl moving around, shifting ever-so-slightly. "I love both of you more than anything in this world."

So, she told him; about the names, the insults, and how sometimes it was still hard to look at herself even when most days were good days. It took a tremendous amount of courage, but she told him about the locker room too. Jenna had to stop talking at some points, too overwhelmed to speak, but eventually she got through it.

"It’s usually fine, but ever since I’ve gotten pregnant all of that’s just been coming back to me. It’s little things, like how the costume department has had to get specific clothes to make me look thinner, or how my cheeks are starting to get chubby again. I know this isn’t the same as being fat but it feels like it, and I can’t stand to look at myself anymore."

Matt listened to her confession with a sober expression and said not a word, curling his arms around his beloved and holding her close. Then a great light seemed to dawn on his expressive features. “I really don’t know what to say, darling. All I can say is I love you, I need you and I want you. All I can do is give you the best of me and try to prove to you once agai just how much you truly mean to me. But first..”

A sneaky grin stole across him as he slowly unwound himself from her embrace with a gentle kiss and went to the CD player, putting in a disc. He then turned and eased her out of bed, her natural curiosity momentarily winning over her sadness and depression. “First, you need to be taken out of yourself. Outside of incredibly intense lovemaking and acting as the good Clara, I’ve only seen one thing accomplish that.”

Matt turned with a manic grin and hit play. “Shall we dance?”

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Wait until she talks to you, but you might want to look into getting Jenna some counselling :(

I think a bit of time away just us to ourselves might be in order as well, don’t you think?

beauty-from-blackpool:

She snuggled willingly against his side, a soft sound of relief escaping her lips. “I love you. I’m sorry, I really am. I didn’t mean to scare you, honestly, and I didn’t mean to just abandon you. I really needed my mum.”

Jenna shivered, nervous that she’d have to repeat the entire story to him. “I know I can tell you anything, but… this is so awful, I could barely even tell mum.”

"I was just worried, tired and confused. I wasn’t even mad or cross, I promise."

They sat there for the longest time, neither saying a word. Matt carded his fingertips through her brunette locks idly and just held her close. “You can tell me as much or as little as you like, although I can probably guess the major points so I won’t press you on it. Just have faith, beautiful. We’ll get through this, all of us.” By way of emphasis he placed his hand gently on her bump and smiled. “We love you.”

beauty-from-blackpool:

When Jenna finally woke, the first thing she noticed was how the bed didn’t quite feel the same, and how there wasn’t anyone asleep next to her. For a blissful moment she couldn’t remember a thing, and then it all came crashing back. 

"Mum?" Jenna called hesitantly. "Matt?"

Matt breathed a sigh of relief. “Sleeping Beauty hath arisen. Come on.” A moment later, he was poking his head ‘round the corner. “Morning, goldbricker. Had me in a right old state, last night.”

Without a word, he slid in and put his arm ‘round her. “I love you in all things and in all ways. You know that, yeah? You can tell me anything.”

jennasmum:

aboyandhischin:

jennasmum:

[text to Matt] Matt? Jenna’s still sleeping, but I’m sure she’ll want to see you when she wakes up.  She didn’t really eat much last night, we could make her breakfast? 

[text] I’m two rooms away, Karen. I’d love to make something for her and maybe you two could explain why I was left in the dark last night after rushing home worried as anything.

"Matt?" Karen called softly, knocking on his and Jenna’s bedroom door.  "Matt, I’m sorry.  I could barely get Jenna to talk to me… she’s terrified to tell you what’s wrong because she thinks you’re going to be ashamed of her."

Matt frowned and sighed. “I thought it might be something like that, but really I almost literally ran home, worried out of my mind and then neither one of you would even tell me it was something she couldn’t bring herself to talk about. I’m not angry, I promise you I’m not. I’m just beyond worried about my wife and she won’t let me help. Yet, anyway. Did you sleep okay?”

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Honestly, I think the producers are going to have to have a rethink. I don't think you realise how upset Jenna is at the moment :/ She's not going to be up to filming today.

Today? No, no, she had today off anyway. They’re doing special effects set ups, so no worry there.

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Jenna didn't keep it from you because she doesn't love you, she did it because she was worried if you knew you wouldn't love her, I think :/ be patient with her, I'm sure she'll talk to you once she's awake.

Oh, honestly I will. Just look at this from my point of view. There I was, rushing home with text after text and already worried, then when I get home - nothing. Not mad, honestly, just pretty badly confused and a tiny bit hurt but that’ll vanish once somebody tells me anything.

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I know you're upset about being left in the dark, but I think what's going on is very personal and embarrassing for Jenna. Sometimes it's hard to tell the people you love about the scary, dark things from your past

I get that, nonnie. But they didn’t even tell me that much.

jennasmum:

[text to Matt] Matt? Jenna’s still sleeping, but I’m sure she’ll want to see you when she wakes up.  She didn’t really eat much last night, we could make her breakfast? 

[text] I’m two rooms away, Karen. I’d love to make something for her and maybe you two could explain why I was left in the dark last night after rushing home worried as anything.

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I'm sure her mom didn't mean to tread on your toes if that's what you're thinking. I think Jenna just wanted to stay with her last night, she was upset. You need to talk to her, Matt.

I’d love to if they’d actually talk to me.